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Everytime without fail, my mind have alot of things I want to blog about. But yet, I always went blank when I typing it.
Currently, I am chatting with two of my friends where they are at Wuhan now. & I seriously miss Wuhan alot. After our feedback, now they having their lesson at level two instead of level seven! So good right, don't need to climb the stairs everyday. For some of us, they do regret going Wuhan as we learn lesser compare to others, or even we won't get the grade we want since our tests and projects is tougher. But the route is we chose, and you guys did enjoy the trips, fun, laughter that we use to share. The part I will never forget is at East Lake, I kana splash by TC until whole body wet and I lie to him that his wallet is in the sea already. I hope i am given another chance to fly again.
Today, is my off day after working 4 days straight. Went to Sentosa with my poly classmates. Although not many people went, but today is more like a relax, talking outing with a few of us. We went to play sand, water gun, poker, volley ball under the hot sun. & I got sun burn on my face, super pain. Jiajun, I told you today won't rain. We also went to have Seoul Garden at MS after we wash up, all of us sat there for almost 2 hours plus eating. But of course, we girls surrender after that and watch the guys continue to eat. After we left there, KW and YC is too full to even walk, so headed home after that. Still, more outings 2Do2. Suppose to meet Clar and Sharon at late night, but my hp low batt so unable to contact each other.
 
What do you see in your future? This is the common topic I have discuss with my friends recently. At this point of time, many of us still don't know what we want in future. Some of my friends, they want to move on, but their over-protective parent restrict their decision whenever they make up their mind. Hence, their future is alway their parents decide for them. Everytime, both of them complaining to me about their parents, I have no idea how to console them cause to me the main problem is their parents. They are doing something they don't like or don't wish to do. Another friends of mine, she suddenly realise this year that the course she pursuing in poly is not suitable for her at all. She know nothing about her future job scope and just follow to study yet her result is not performing well. Then, she realise she never do well because she didn't like the course in the first place. Next, my another friends also, he told me he lost the motivation, interest, passion in studying already. Before he enter poly that time, I have already warn him that poly life will not be as easy as you think. Yet, all his mind have was money and neglect his studies. When he finally realise it, it was too late and he might fail two modules. But he used to work hard for five years to get into poly, yet he become likedat. He told me also, he dunno what he is doing now is right or wrong. He just say, his life is meaningless when he have no goal. Yet another friend of mine told me yesterday that, he feel like stopping his studies now and go army. He afraid that if he don't go now, he will ord very late and start working in the society very late, so he feel like he is wasting time now. He is afraid that if he tell his decision to his parents, his parents might not understand.
I have many friends facing this decision that they need to make for their future, they do not know which is their suitable path. Looking at them, I see myself now at where am I, my future is there but yet not clear. Because at times, I still doubt on my ability and my choice that I have made until today. I think I really need to plan for my future already. In my mind, I have a very clear route that I am going to take after my poly but I know that it won't be easy. So I am trying hard now. I am lucky that my mum don't restrict my decision regrading studies wise, because she believe that is my life, I have to make the decision myself so I won't blame anyone in future. In my secondary school days, I met a few senior who really teach me alot especially planning for my future route. But now, some went in to NS, some already at aust studying.. I feel like I have lost some guidance. The only guidance I have is my elder sister and brother but at times i need encouragement and support. I mean who don't need it. Everyone will reach a point where their confidence level will drop and raise, we are human.
Seriously, I need to sit down to think for my future and plan a backup route soon. That all my friends are facing now, so let work hard for our future. I really wonder when my result out and I didn't meet the expectation my mum wants, she will be depressed. Nobody can see how much effort have I put in this semester, or do i really slacken alot?
&& you. I am glad that now at least you already start to regret. that the reason why I told you to cherish her alot that time. we people can only see people faults and not their goods, but when you lose it, regret come about. I will forgive you for whatever stuffs, words you have done to me, or even wanting me to be your replacement. I just hope that we have can remain as how we use to be. |
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